ITS NOT THE CHILDRENS' FAULT....OUR STORY

MY NAME IS MARIA WILLIAMS,I AM 28 YEARS OLD AND I CURRENTLY RESIDE....EVERYWHERE AND NO WHERE WITH MY 5 CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF 6 YEARS OLD. SINCE MAY 5,2012. DUE TO A SERIES OF MISHAPS IN MY PAST LIFE IT HAS BECOME ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE AND VERY UNBEARABLE TRYING TO TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILYBY MYSELF. I'M TRYING MY HARDEST NOT TO BECOME JUST ANOTHER STATISTIC SO I STRIVE TO MAKE ENDS MEET WHILE TEACHING MY 4 GIRLS STRONG MORALS AND VALUES ALONG THE WAY. I WANT TO BE SELF SUFFICIENT AND LIVE INSTEAD OF JUST EXISTING. ALOT ASK..."WHY DON'T YOU JUST GET A JOB?" "WHERES YOUR CHILDRENS FATHERS AT?" "DON'T YOU GET PUBLIC ASSISTANCE?" "WHERES YOUR FAMILY?" ....AND MY ANSWERS TO THAT IS THIS: IF I HAD CHILDCARE,A MEANS OF TRANSPORTATION AND A DRIVERS' LISCENCE, A CLEAN BACKGROUND,AND CONSISTENT WORK HISTORY I'D HAVE A JOB. MY CHILDRENS FATHERS FIGURE ITS "OUTTA SIGHT,OUTTA MIND" AND OUT OFTHE 4 ,ONE IS CURRENTLY ON CHILD SUPPORT SO WERE LIVING OFF OF $507 MONTHLY WITH A FAMILY OF 6 THE OTHERS ARE PROLONGING THE INEVITABLE. AS FAR AS PUBLIC ASSISTANCE IS CONCERNED WE RECEIVE FOODSTAMPS ONLY ALONG WITH W.I.C.. I WAS JUST APPROVED FOR TEMPORARY HOUSING FOR ARLINTON,TEXAS BACK IN MAY BUT BECAUSE OF MY ONLY/RECENT EVICTION AND BACKGROUND ,ALONG WITH LACK OF DEPOSITS AND PAYING APPLICATION FEES AT VARIOUS COMPLEX JUST TO BE TURNED DOWN AGAIN AND AGAIN, WE HAVE YET TO FIND A PLACE TO ACCEPT US AND OUR VOUCHER EXPIRES JULY 17. I'VE ALWAYS BEEN ABLE TO AT LEAST "MAKE IT" WITHOUT BECOMING A BURDEN TO FAMILY MEMBERS BUT AS TIME WENT ON AND MY 93 SUBURBAN(WHICH I'M STILL PAYING PAYMENTS ON BUT AM CURRENTLY 3 MONTHS BEHIND WITH CAVENDAR MOTORS ON E LANCASTER IN THE EASTSIDE OF FORT WORTH) FALLING TO PIECES WEEK BY WEEK UNTIL THE TRASMISSION FINALLY GAVE OUT(SOLD ME A LEMON),MY CHILDREN AND I HAVE BEEN PUT OUT OF EVERY FRIENDS/FAMILY MEMBERS HOME AND AM WEARING OUT OUR WELCOME WAITING ON SOMEONE TO APPROVE MY VOUCHER. EVEN THE PASTOR AND FIRST LADY OF THE CHURCH WERE MEMBERS OF HELPED TO PUT USUP IN ROOM TO GET US OUT OF THE HOT TRUCK FOR A FEW DAYS BUT THAT ALSO WAS SHORT LIVED. I HAVE WRITTEN MY SENATOR, EMAILED EVERY EMPLOYEE AT THE ARLIGTON HOUSING AUTHORITY,TRIED EVERY SHELTER,TRIED EVERY PROGRAM 211 UNITED WAY HAS TO OFFER AND AM LOSING HOPE AND FAITH THAT GOD IS EVEN WITH ME ANY MORE. ITS NOT MY KIDS FAULT THAT WE DON'T HAVE THE NECESSITIES BUT I DON'T WANT THEM TO HAVE TO STRUGGLE WITH ME ON THESE STREETS AND I DEFINATELY DON'T WANT CHILD PROTECTIVE SERVICES TO GET INVOLVED. ONE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS EVEN SUGGESTED THAT I LOOK INTO A CHRISTIAN GROUP HOME TO PLACE MY KIDS TILL I GET ON MY FEET BUT I CAN'T BE WITHOUT MY CHILDREN...THEY ARE MY ONLY SOURCE OF MOTIVATION AND ALL I LIVE FOR. THE OTHER DAY MY OLDEST DAUGHTER, MIRACLE, TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY "I WISH I HAD A BUNCH OF PAPER AND CRAYONS SO I CAN DRAW PICTURES AND SELL THEM TO CUSTOMERS THAT WAY WE DONT HAVE TO ASK NOBODY FOR ANYTHING AGAIN AND WE CAN TAKE CARE OF OURSELVES AND HAVE GAS MONEY" THAT BLEW MY MIND...SHE'S 6! ALL OF OUR BELONGINGS ARE ABOUT TO BE AUCTIONED AT PUBLIC STORAGE,I CAN'T GET MY TRUCK BACK FROM THE DEALERSHIP UNTIL I PAY WHAT I OWE FOR THE PAST 3 MONTHS PLUS AN EXTRA $500 THE DEALERSHIP SAID HE'D CHARGE TO FIX MY TRANSMISSION ON TOP OF MY NOTE,WE'RE TIRED OF LIVING FROM PLACE TO PLACE KNOWING I HAVE A VOUCHER IN PLACE, MY PAST CRIMINAL RECORD PRECEDES ME, STUDENT LOANS IN DEFAULT SO I CAN'T GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND BETTER MY SELVES....TOO MUCH ON MY PLATE. CAN'T EVEN AFFORD TO HAVE MY TUBES TIED OR PAY FOR MY MHMR PRESCRIPTIONS FOR LACK OF MEDICAL INSURANCE. I FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS CRASHING DOWN ON TOP OF US WITH NO REGARD FOR MY BABIES. I JUST NEED A FOUNDATION TO START WITH...GIVING UP MY KIDS IS NOT AN OPTION.