ME ~ "THE GOOD ~VS~BAD ...AN HONEST LOOK AT MYSELF

   

       I figured alot of people ask me things about myself so im going to list every trait rather good or bad.every like and dislike and so forth to keep down redundancy. My names Maria Antoinette. I am a 29 year old single mother. I was born August.7th. I am your typical but unpredictable Leonian woman. I am legally married but am not with my husband and we live in 2 seperate states.  I am working towards filing for divorce for the 2nd time and am just waiting on paternity tests of my youngest child,MY sON. I have 5 children. 4 GIRLS AND 1 BOY from 4 fathers. None of my childrens fathers are in their lives and though this is disappointing I hold my own pretty well.My buissness name is "The basket CASE OF FORT worth ". Im into gifting and accessories and everything i make is hand crafted. I also draw freehand...i wanna learn to do tattoos,i cut and fade and also braid mens hair. I do designs and have all my equiptment at home. I do women and childrens hair also. I design and sew my own costumes,lingerie and costumes, i do face painting for childrens events,im into photography and modeling...used to model for church...i am a preachers kid. My mothers a pastor. I am very much into music and write and produce my own music...yes guys i do make beats on all software and programs. I love old school cars and working on them and tricking them out. I reupholster and embroider car seat covers and am into interior design and decor. I love video games and im the ultimate gamer chick...i play EVERYTHING from Madden, Call of duty , UFC,FIGHTING gAMES,SHOOTING gAMES...YOU NAME IT. I aM A DIE HARD XBOX360 FAN. Im into poetry and the arts. I love camping and fishing and being outdoors pointing i am not bitter behind it. I was born in Detroit,raised on the east of ftworth and now live in arlington by the Cowboys stadium. I live alone with all of my children in a spacious 2 bedroom apartment. Although i am not working full time i do own my own legit buissness. You can find me on facebook,twitter,manta,indeed.com  I am a frugal woman so it doesnt take much to make me happy but i do pray that with my persistants i will obtain the greater things in life. Im into fashion..love to dress and wear make up. I am a natural beauty but love to accessorize so if you dont like women that wear fake things(hair,lashes,nails) i maynot be for you.. My favorite colors is red.black and gold and my home is furnished as such. Im a clean freak and good hygiene is a must. I love to read all sorts of literature when i have time. Scary movies, comedy and action is what i like...in that order. I am a self proclaimed comedian so if you dont have a sense of humor im not the one for you.... MY GOOD TRAITS: IM GENEROUS,NOBLE,HONEST TO A DEFAULT,MUST SPEAK wHATS ON MY MIND AT aLL TIMES,TEND TO BE N THE SPOTLIGHT IN EVERYTHING I dO wITHOUT EFFORT, i strive FOR PERSONAL INDEPENDENCE,GIVE OF MYSELF TOTALLY ONCE I OPEN MYSELF UP tO YOU,iM LIVELY AND SPONTANEOUS,LIKE tO dO tHINGS IN tHE sPARE OF THE MOMENT,FUNLOVING,SINCERE,LIKE FIGHTING FOR a CAUSE! I HAVE A NEED TO BE ENTHUSIASTIC AND INSPIRED TO KEEP MY VITALITY INTACT,DONT LIKE BEING IGNORED, DONT LIKE DULL MOMENTS OR eNVIRONMENTS, LOVE TO tALK,CANT STAND a PERSON wHO CANT HOLD a LIVE CONVERSATION(IN A DAYS TIME I CAN MAKE U FEEL LIKE YOUVE BEEN KNOWING ME FOREVER). MY LOVE FOR fUN IS ONLY OUTDONE BY THE ROMANTIC IN ME. IM a FOOL FOR LOVE AND ONCE IN LOVE CAN SPOIL MY MAN IN eVERY ASPECT,IM a FAITHFUL LOVER wHEN tOTALLY PLEASED, IM FOREVER OPTIMISTIC SO ITS aLMOST IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO SEE ANY PROBLEM aS INSURMOUNTABLE, I HAVE NO TIME FOR eXCUSES ESP. WHEN IM MAKING IT WITH 5 KIDS ALONE aND PROVIDING ALL OF OUR NEEDS BYMYSELF. I LOVE SINCERE COMPLIMENTS aND aM TURNED OFF BY IMMEDIATE VULGARIY UNLESS I PROVOKE IT. LIKE DONT ADD ME THEN LET "WHEN YOU GONna let me ..blah blah whatever...fill in the blanks."THE LISTS OF NASTINESS IVE HEARD IS CRAZY AND ENDLESS. REGARDLESS, ITS aN AUTOMATIC TURN OFF. MY LOVE OF KIDS AND BEING IN tOUCH WITH MY INNER cHILD MAKES ME A NATURAUL FUN PARENT. MY TUBES ARENT TIED. (FOR MY FUTURE HUSBAND). I AM STRONG AND RESILIANT AND HAVE BEEN tOO MANY tIMES CLOSE TO DEATH. I have a background which is why im self employed. I have been in the juvenile system in TYC until i was 21 and overcame that also, I aM PASSIONATE ABOUT MY LIFE GOALS DREAMS FAITH IN GOD AND FAMILY, I aM LOYAL TO aNYONE I CONSIDER IN MY CIRCLE BUT ONCE I HAVE BEEN HURT OR BETRAYED BY YOU I MAY FORGIVE BUT I WONT FORGET AND ONCE YOURE dISMISSED fROM MY LIFE YOURE GONE FOR GOOD. MY BORN CHARM LIES IN BEING aBLE TO sAY NO TO EXACTLY WHAT I wANT. I KNOW MY PLACE AS a WOMAN .NOW, FOR THE "BAD" STUFF....THESE ARE THINGS I KNOW aND HAVE BEEN TOLD ABOUT MYSELF... IVE BEEN TOLD THAT IM TOO BLUNT AND HONEST tO wHERE I COME OFF AS RUDE AT TIMES AND HAVE NO REGARD fOR FEELINGS WHEN I SPEAK MY OPINIONS. I DISLIKE REPETITION AND CANT STAND WHEN I HAVE TO aSK a   QUESTION MORE THAN TWICE...BY tHEN IM LIKE "NEVER MIND"., IVE BEEN TOLD I CAN BE TOO DOMINEERING aND POSSESSIVE,OVERLY JEALOUS IF I FEEL IM NOT GETTING ENOUGH aTTENTION, SOME SAY I HOG THE SPOTLIGHT, ITS HARD TO GET a WORD IN IF I fEEL YOURE BORING ME.  I EXPECT tHE BEST BUT PREPARE FOR THE WORST CAUSE OF PAST EXPERIENCES SO IT LEAVES ME CANCELLING OUT ANY MAN WHO MAY EVEN a LITTLE REMIND ME OF PAST RELATIONSHIPS, IM NOT ALWAYS WILLING tO TRY NEW THINGS THAT dID NOT SPRING FROM MY OWN FANTASIES, I HAVE A TENDENCY TO CLING TO BAD RELATIONSHIPS CAUSE MY PRIDE WONT ALLOW ME TO ADMIT IVE MADE a MISTAKE, I CAN BE VERY DEMANDING,STUBBORN aND IMPULSIVE, I DONT THINK tHINGS ALL THE wAY THROUGH OR HOW THEY MAY EFFECT aNYONE ELSE BUT MY CIRCLE. IF I HAVE ANY ROOM TO BELIEVE YOU ARE NOT BEING TOTALLY HONEST WITH ME OR YOU gIVE ME YOUR WORD aND BREAK IT FOR ANY REASON MY HEART WILL SHUT DOWN aND I BECOMe VERY SNIDE,SMART MOUTHED AND WHATEVER BRICKS IVE PULLED FROM MY WALL GETS IMMEDIATELY THROWN BACK UP. I HAVE a HARD TIME TRUSTING MENS SINCERITY. I HAVE ABANDONMENT AND SELF ESTEEM ISSUES. I FEEL MOST MEN JUST WANT MY BODY AND WILL SAY OR DO aNYTHING TO GET IN WHERE THEY fIT IN. IM NARCUSSISTIC OR aT LEAST IVE BEEN TOLD.